BeAuTy ON FiRe

It’s convo time for me on 1st August!!! I’m truely grateful that I have gone this far…I mean I could have freaked out along the way and anything can happen in this unexpected life right? It’s amazing that even one tiny mistake can change our whole life (so, it must be- not a ‘tiny’ mistake, huh). I see my close friends evolve from a messy girl into a beautiful young woman, another friend who was not even popular in school turned out succesfull in her new career, a playful flirting friend finally got married, a long lost friend actually has a child, and myself…(Hmmmmmm..I open for comments). And some people just never change! There are some who are going to pursue their Masters, and even PhD.

I must admit, it’s a competitive life. You will have to catch up if you want to survive in this day of age. Well, whatever road we have chosen is our right. It’s not like when we were in school- we were all on the same level. Now our "incubation" period is over. We are "released" (like new synthesized virus) from our comfortable cell out into the systemic environment. Are we ready? Definitely, the new-found environment will not be a place you can call home. So, here comes the Darwin’s Theory of Natural Selection. I guess it all depends how well we can adapt, evolve(for the better), and finally when the time comes we can be pioneers and ready to establish our colonies!!!huahauhuahuaa…ok, I better stop now, my brain is exploring way too much.

Do you know what you want? What you really really want???

I am one good example of someone who knew what I wanted. I’m a person full of hopes and dreams. Eversince I was I child, I followed the "tracks’" and trailed every "pathway". Till one day I’ve reached the final "pathway" and suddenly I came across a crossroad. And in that crossroad are many more branches of crossroads. And this is me now..on the edge of that cross road. I’m completely grateful however with all of His blessings and I never want to doubt His plans for me. But sometimes, I’m blinded by many things along the way. Sometimes I just want to run..this reminds me of this song:

I used to think I had the answer to everything. But now I know, things don’t always go my way…

I pray that Lord You open my eyes of my heart.

I truly believe that at this stage of being "lost" is a chance for me to discover myself, to trust in Jesus and obey. Now, if you are wondering what in the world am I talking about? It’s mainly about my career and where I’m heading next..the future and all there is to life. My hope is to really understand what my passion is, what is it that brings me energy to succeed?? Right now –I don’t have the answer.

Wow..great to have a blog. This is going to be a journey…things may fall apart, they may come together, and they might even disappear. Well, that’s my life-full of uncertainties, ambitions, surprises,excitement and may even be pathetic. So, when I’m UP or DOWN or in BETWEEN, I’ll have this blog to go to and start to ‘membebel’. However, ALL IS WELL WITH MY SOUL.