BeAuTy ON FiRe

Are we preoccupied with work, studies, partners, events, ambition? That sounds normal right, not like it’s a bad thing. But this is wat has happened, to me at least.

I used to play guitar and sing and sometimes attempt to write songs….not anymore in the past few..(months?years?) I used to wake up with a song in my head and it stays with me…but now, i have to "search" for a song in my little library somewhere in my brain…oh no!

I sometimes get good dreams at nite…but now, i even dream going to work and just to wake up and go to work-again!

As a student in school, i love to draw. Had many sketch books, got myself art pens, colors etc. And now, i hardly step inside the stationary shop, unless i desperately need to grab a magazine or photostat my documents!

As a an undergraduate, receiving some aided allowances, i shopped till i drop…gone to many sales and malls…whether on foot, bus, taxi or train..yep, i still got there.And filled my closet with a wide range of outfits.And now, even earning a good pay, having a car and convenient  environment..i find that  when i get there i’d say. "there’s nothing to buy..i’m done". Amazing, did my standard of selection  suddenly shot up? I don’t know, maybe i just wanna make my money worth.

Oh, i also did sit-ups every morning and it became a natural habit..i kept my abs toned (well, not as toned as posh spice).And now??arrr…i’ll only take action after self body examination or when the pants won’t fit! and then i’ll go on a crash exercise and skip the rice…or chicken dat i get tired of sometimes.

WEll, wat i’ve learned here is that, life changes..yes, true. But we must remember, we are who we are designed to be. I’m not willing to let my personality "go"! There’s only 1of me. So, this year i’ll try my best to regain my traits, my origin, habits, abilities and talents…so weird, why the struggle? After all it is the essence of who I am.
ok..let’s go hiking!

Wow..my last blog was NOv o6. It’s been a while.Ok, i’m blank..later.

bla bla bla bla...has anyone ever criticized about other people in front of you?complaining? whining?or worse, giving unwanted, unnecessary comments on YOU??AAAAaahHhhh..belive me, these people exist!

I just hate "bebelan" eversince i was born. It makes me feel stuffed inside and there’s nothing i can do about it but to keep silent and not make them sound worse…but there is a boiling point. You see, when people start to criticize, they are actually opening themselves to criticism.Let’s say some1 says "Eww, why is ur hair dat color?it looks awful.." Ok, for the first few times it’s tolerable. But wat abt for the 2789th times??that will be the time to release ur greatest nuclear atomic bom…watever.and say sumthing like.."yeah, your hair’s so perfect and pretty..isit tranplanted onto ur head??ohh..don’t u think it’s time for u to get sum workout…cos ur so fat dat u look pregnant…" haaiiii…well, dat has never happened yet..or ever.Cos i can’t do it…and i don’t even care.

tell u a trick…next time sum1 pisses u off…just think of wat YOU HAVE dat he/she DOESN’T HAVE. Like i did dat day…heheh. I almost lost it but i gained my hapiness back and not let others ruin it. I just said to myself, well…her hubby is fat and hairy…and I’m going for a vacation soon with my butt-cute,superduper happening and loving hubby.and she’s NOT. Ok, instantly, i smiled and had a good day.sounds bad, i know…but at least those thoughts saved me from anger and frustration of dealing with it.So, it happens in ur mind.No harm done to others.So, dat day i moved on, forgave her and forget all about it.AaaaHHhhhh!!! So beat it!

Just some galpower tips to all my galfrens out there…yey.(oh, the title is CLICK cos i clicked my own ‘remote control’ and got hold of the situation..try the ‘mute’ button..probably my favourite button..heheeh)

This is the song dat’s in my heart right now..i would like to share it with a few special people in my life..especially the one i love.u all know who u are. Set your eyes on Jesus, then the best is yet to come..those who call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.

THE BEST IS YET TO COME

Music by GMB, lyrics by Sidney Mohede

Copyright 2006 Ó

GivingMyBestMusic/TrueWorshippers Prod.

Lihatlah bintang di semesta

Bintang yang bersinar bagi kita

Waktu yang telah diberikan

Sangatlah berharga janganlah siakan

S’bab Kau-lah yang kudamba

Dan Kaulah s’galanya

Now I run

And set my eyes on You

I lay my life at Your feet

My heart and my plans

And my future’s in Your hands

Now my soul

Rests like the stars above

For I know that the best is yet to come

I feel sleepy now but i just don’t like my day to pass by sleeping .haaaiiii…finally i have a day(halfday) for myself..let my laziness take over me.I know it’s just a short weekend for me..like any other weekend..or sometimes weekends don’t exist..when I’m working overtime like a couple of weeks ago.I notice dat most of my frens mention about being busy,no time, too much work and all of that in their blogs. I think that’s a positive thing. I mean, we’re on the run..keeping ourselves on track..instead of forever having vacations..and shopping. Yes, we deserve a break once in a while. It’s healthy to be doing work in our lives. I remember feeling rather depressed during my jobhunting times. As for me, yup..working is tiring especially working in a private hospital..it never stops..unlimited service! HOwever, i find it a fulfulling thing to do…or sumtimes not..when I make mistakes or accidentally caused a delay during an emergency.

This job has 2 opposite ends..it either makes my day…or..gives me a bad day.huhuhu…but..there’s owez sum1 i can lean on and i’ll be better again. Having to wear a green scrub everyday…imagine dat..green??i hate the color green on clothes..(i love green environment laa).Well…i got used to it. As a matter of fact, i got used to so many things..like using the syringe to draw blood, pricking people with needles and stuff, looking at human organs(breasts,lumps,gallblader, testes…and others which i can’t even name them)..examine seminal fluid..sperms..urine and Stool..whoever it belongs to..hmm..some belongs to rich VIPs..hehe..no need to mention names..yup..i’ve seen their body wastes…even crawling parasites..

It’s Fun and challenging all at the same time..it can be hard, yet not that hard…nothing is easy in life, yet nothing is too hard to achieve. We go through both.So…"HAVE A NICE DAY"…bak kata pepatah Bon Jovi (ooh,i like him..hehe)

First of all, thanks to Elaine,Lil and El. I know you guys will give uplifting comments as you’re all women of strong characters,heheh.
Yep, MBA guys suck! Well it’s a pity though cos they can be really nice people in reality but that MBA behavior is unacceptable.Truely, I sympathise their wives, whoever they are.
On the other hand, some guys may appear to behave like MBA when they are not, as they just like to tease and have some fun without any bad intention. This can be complicated cos it may lead to misunderstanding on people around and even their partners. Maybe the two get caught on a bad day standing closely to each other…?
I shall not mention names or places here. We’ll have a detailed conversation when we get together one day. Speaking of it just makes me miss all of my good buddies..elaine, cat, lil..christie,..norin..ivy..Wow, we truely have lots to talk about!
In my point of view and realtime experience, I get uncomfortable when it gets too far. When I feel that certain gestures or touch is just meant especially for me and my love. It isn’t fair that MBA(or non MBA guys) find their chances on doing those intimate stuff. It’s just not worth it. They don’t have that right anyway! HUhu..I shall remain faithful..

Initially, i was not bothered. After a while, I learned the meaning of MBA. At the time, it was not a big deal for me, it may just be a joke. Wat do I mean? I’ve heard of the term "MBA" several times. Spontaneously, I didn’t take it seriously. As a fun-loving person and with my selamba attitude, it was alright.
Wat is "MBA"?Nop..not Master of Business Administration…guess again?
M : Married
B : But
A : Available

But then today I realized that it was NOT ALRITE. There is a danger zone. I must be aware of these MBA guys. No doubt they are normal friendly people, but I must keep my professional distance. However, the question is…wat is exactly the limit,the borderline, the acceptable behaviour?? I may need your comments on this. At the same time, I don’t want to end up as some kind of an over-reacting freak..i think you know wat i mean. Friendly gestures are just fine. One can’t be like a log anyway. It’s just that when will a joke means more than a joke? Sometimes it depends on one’s sensitivity on the issue and others’ perceptions about it. Let me give some example..
–> MBA guy gives a shoulder massage
–>MBA guy jokingly pushes you as he walks by
–>MBA guy declares that he an "MBA" himself
–>People around you know abt MBA guys and talk about it openly
So, should there be some kind of protection here? To avoid misunderstandings..to remain innocent(cos you are)..Wat’s a good way to avoid it?
Well, i think that if you start having some guilt and start thinking of wat ur other half would think, then you’ll know it’s over the board.Stay away from those MBAs.

Everytime I feel like writing a new post in my blog..i don’t know wat to talk about. I’ll normally just let the thoughts flow. And wat’s on my mind rite now? hhmm..there’s so much actually. Especially after reading Lillian’s Personal Quotes. Honestly i feel touched that i’m actually part of her life. And do hope i’m part of many others’ lives. I always believe this, eversince i was a little girl..that life is to be shared. Hmm, kinda contradicts my personality at the time(when i was small) cos I was basically a loner.hahah..but that’s another story.
The fact is, i long to be around my family, extended families(oohh), friends and more friends..all my life. Some people lose their friends as they get older or when they start having their own family. But personally, there is no good reason to lose your friendships. We may not see each other every single day but we still keep our friendship..it’s a treasure. How lonely life would be without sharing or giving to one another. There is absolutely nothing to lose. Special relationships leads to extraordinary intimacy that nothing the world can offer(that’s my point of view).Just thinking of how the mechanism functions is more than amazing.
In a nutshell(hehe..owez use this phrase in English essays in school), we all need each other. Anyone who live life for himself and by himself is simply pathetic and selfish. That’s grievious. That’s why i value every relationship, especially special ones as they don’t come by easily. I’m grateful for these blessings!

Wee..I’m back with the ever so hot topic-HAIR. I find it hard not to talk about hair especially when ur female..or in between. Maybe not, admit it-guys are conscious about their hair too.Everyone will have at least a tiny bit of concern over their hair..unless ur a porcupine or something..hey, even lions take care of their hair.

So, wat’s the story this time? Aaahh..it’s time for me to trim and restyle my hair again. Since my curls are curling itself further away from the roots, my hair has returned(almost) to it’s natural structure-wavy.  Ironing?Straightening? My answer is a big NO.Curling? NO too. Done all that. Well, i do feel a bit tempted to curl it again..wild..hahah..like my mentor-Shakira (she’s so hot, isn’t she). But after giving it some thoughts, maybe it’s not practical for me..i dunno.oohh..(i’m imagining those curls) wouldn’t it be cool??hhmm..ayaaa..i’m undecided.But then again, i do miss my original hair.emm, I think i’ll stick to it.yeah, dat’s rite.I guess i’m gona have to comb my hair everyday -which i’ve been doing for a month, now that my hair is straighter (for those who are blur-curls shouldn’t be combed..just have to run fingers through).

Ok, final say.So wat’s the big deal in all of this hair biz??It is a BIG DEAL. High 5 to my woman fren Lillian. Your hair is ur self esteem. Watever changes that u do to it, will reflect a meaning to who u are.That’s why we get so uncomfortable when our hair do not turn out the way we want it to be. Talk abt bad hair day.

I’m gald i have found a salon that meets my needs..so far, they are doing a good job. I’ll be back there soon *wink*

"Aku sedang ingin bercinta karena…bila ada kamu..di sini, aku ingin.."
                                                                                                                                                           ~DEWA~

It is a common thing..called love. Such a common word, with a simple meaning but how confusing it can be in reality. How risky, dangerous and unpredictable it may turn out to be!

AAahh..enough of complicated thinking. Does everything need to have an explanation? Must there be a reason? Maybe..NO. oh, this reminds me..abt the status in my profile- It’s not complicated..anymore.

1 thing funny though..ask me anything personal on love..I’ll be blushing(maybe not literally), trying to search for a hideout just to bury my face. And i’ll give an everlasting smile as my eyes become dreamy and my mouth will utter incomplete sentences that don’t make sense.
aaaahh..Understood la